Well. It’s a good thing I wasn’t invested in the outcome of those phone interviews I had last week, because the outcome consisted of two you-suck, piss-off emails this week. But I don’t care. I wasn’t invested.
Even though I wasn’t invested, I feel like shit. Don’t know why that is.
This morning I find that not only can I not make the to-do list I still need to make before I can get anything done, I can’t even do my usual time-wasting things. I can’t scroll through Facebook. I can’t have pointless arguments with idiots on Discus comment boards. And I cannot stand the thought of scanning the job boards one more freaking time. Eff you, Craigslist and all the rest. Eff off.
Recently someone quoted Calvin Coolidge, of all people, at me. He said:
Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan “press on” has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.
Yeah, eff you, Calvin. Persistence has done nothing to solve my problems. Not this one and not any other problem, either. Your life must have been simple if you think persistence is all that.
While looking up the wording of that stupid sentiment, I found a whole bunch of similar pablum.
Courage and perseverance have a magical talisman, before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish into air.
-John Quincy Adams
All of you dead presidents need to stfu.
Never, never, never, never give up.
Succinct, if not especially helpful.
So I went looking for some quotes from women who might “get” my life a little better.
I wanted you to see what real courage is, instead of getting the idea that courage is a man with a gun in his hand. It’s when you know you’re licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what.
Um. Moving on.
Oh. Not moving on. I scrolled and scrolled but the page of quotes about persistence has no other women on it. Maybe women know better than to spout bullshit like that.
Later I have a lunch date with some friends I had back before I became a worthless excuse for a human being. Hopefully they won’t notice.